nakikibalita, nangungumusta, atbp.

mahigit dalawang buwan atang natahimik ‘tong blog ko. gustuhin ko mang magsulat ng magsulat, tamad na tamad ako eh. andami kong drafts, lalo na at magtatapos ang taon pero hindi ko alam kung magkakaroon ako ng oras para tapusin silang lahat.

dapat sana “buhay pa ako” or “andito pa ako” ang title ng blog post na ‘to kaso namomorbidan ako lalo na at para akong tanga lately na iniisip ko paano na yung anak ko kung mategi ako bigla. as in mukha akong ewan, i am aware i was telling the important people in my life na huwag papabayaan ang anak ko if ever something happens to me, kaya lalo akong napapraning. nakaexperience ka na siguro ng ganun, yung mga kamaganak na unaware na nagbibilin. ako naman praning lang. ayaw ko pang madeds. madami pa akong dapat gawin. gusto ko pang makita mga apo ko sa tuhod, ganung level.

andami kong gustong ikwento, yun pa yung nakwento ko ‘no? siguro kasi nabobother talaga ako at talagang kailangan ko siyang ilabas. marami akong eme sa buhay lately, busy, stressed, pagod, kaya halos wala din akong magawang productive. wait, meron naman ata, konti. end of the year na pero madami pa akong hindi nagagawa na gusto ko sanang magawa this year. mukhang maeextend na naman siya sa 2018.

meron narin akong word for next year, courage. dumating siya sa akin mid-year pa lang ng 2017 pero hindi ko muna siya ineentertain kasi another strong word na naman, eh si joy na ngalang pinahirapan ako ng bonggang-bongga. sana mas maging mabait sa akin ng konti si courage. gusto ko naman ng hindi roller coaster na taon. saka na ako magsusulat ng yearly keme ko for 2017 at intro ng one word ko kapag sinipag ako. hopefully, by first week of january. baka gusto mong maki-join, magset ka rin ng one word for 365 days for 2018. click mo ‘to para sa details ng one word kemerut barurut.

exactly one month and one day to go, madadagdagan na naman ang taon sa edad ko, kaya rin siguro kung ano-anong naiisip ko. sana matapos ko yung mga dapat kong isulat ng december hanggang january. sana sipagin ako. at sana makalagpas ako sa kabaliwan phase ko kapag december.

ikaw, kumusta? anong balita sa’yo?

– w.l, a.

huwag sanang ganito ang isagot mo sa tanong ko. hahaha. pero naaliw ako dito.
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; #keepgoing

I was feeling low when I woke up today thinking of the day ahead, of the plans I have to fulfill, of the things I want to do, of how hard it is to get a part time home based job, of my frustrations on my financial obligations, loans and credit card bills I have to pay, of the hindrances I am facing before I get to relocate, and how I want to be debt free in an instant. I was thinking, am I depressed? Maybe yes. Or not. I was feeling out of sorts until I saw the state of the informal settlers along East Bank Road on my way to work this morning. Continue reading “; #keepgoing”

asian drama list

According to My Drama List, I watched a total of 1,318 episodes, 60 shows in 56 days and 2 hours or 1,346 hours of my life.

K-Drama
01. 49 Days
02. All About Eve
03. Autumn in My Heart
04. Boys over Flowers
05. Cinderella’s Stepsister
06. City Hunter
07. Coffee Prince
08. Dong Yi
09. Dream High
10. Faith
11. Fated to Love You
12. Full House
13. Goblin
14. Gu Family Book
15. Heartstrings
16. Jewel in the Palace
17. Jumong
18. King of Baker, Kim Tak Goo
19. King of High School
20. Legend of the Blue Sea
21. Lie To Me
22. Love Rain
23. Love Story in Harvard
24. Lovers in Paris
25. Marry Me Mary
26. Master’s Sun
27. Monstar
28. Moon Embracing the Sun
29. Moonlight Drawn By Clouds
30. My Girlfriend is a Gumiho
31. My Love from Another Star
32. My Name is Kim Sam Soon
33. My Princess
34. Perfect Taste
35. Playful Kiss
36. Princess Hours
37. Queen Inhyun’s Man
38. Rooftop Prince
39. Secret Garden
40. Shining Inheritance
41. Spring Waltz
42. Stairway to Heaven
43. Sungkyunkwan Scandal
44. Temptation of a Wife
45. The Heirs
46. The King 2 Hearts
47. The World That They Live In
48. Winter Sonata
49. You’re Beautiful

T-Drama
50. Autumn’s Concerto
51. Devil beside You
52. Fated to Love You
53. Hana Kimi
54. It Started with a Kiss
55. Love Keeps Going
56. Meteor Garden
57. Romantic Princess
58. They Kiss Again
59. Why Why Love

J-Drama
60 .Hana Yori Dango

– wl, a.

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All Time Favorites: 
– Coffee Prince
– Goong/Princess Hours
– It Started with a Kiss

Currently Watching:
– The Package
– While You Were Sleeping

Plan to Watch:
– Strong Woman Do Bong Soon
– Remember War of Son

The k-dramas I just started are still running in Korea. Who wants to buddy watch with me? What k-dramas are you watching right now?

 

when frustration hits you hard

a review on Lineage2 Revolution

I lost my cool the other day and threw my phone across the bed, it bounced and hit the wall… of pillows. I should be thankful for the pillows if not I would be phone-less by now. I even almost accidentally hit my daughter if my partner was not at our daughter’s side when I had a fit. I didn’t have a fight with someone or read something bad or irritating on social media if that’s what you’re thinking. I would usually just rant if that’s the case. This time, I snapped over a game. Yes, an effing mobile MMORPG.

Continue reading “when frustration hits you hard”

sunday currently | 06

ola, oktubre!

273 days of 2017, 85 days before Christmas, 27 days before my one week leave–Hello, October!

The days flies so fast sometimes I can’t keep up. Thinking how I started this year and where I am now, I’ve been through a lot in that 273 days. My daughter also turned seventeen months old today when it feels like I just had her in my tummy yesterday. Now, I have a little kid running around the house and turning everything upside down when no one is looking.

CURRENTLY

Reading Godsgrave by Jay Kristoff. I started reading this last month even though I wasn’t even half way on Clash of Kings. I just need one book for my 12 books reading challenge. I still have plenty of time to finish the challenge. Maybe I wouldn’t exceed on my reading goal this year.

Writing drafts on Broadway songs, Lineage 2 Revolution review, some writing exercises. Kdrama list, and trying to come up with book and movie reviews again. I am also considering a travel article. Of where? I don’t know yet.

Listening to Moira dela Torre songs. I like listening to #hugot songs and Moira perfected that craft. I heard this song from Kasya Pa, a short film starring Empoy and Alessandra de Rossi.

Watching Supergirl’s Season Two. I went back to watching American series lately. I have a number of kdramas lined up (not to mention books to read) but the new season of CW series are about to start and I haven’t finished the last season of those yet!

Thinking of the future. I tend to overthink, a lot. I can’t stop thinking of things that I should not focus on yet. It’s not healthy but it calms me in a way that I would “somehow” be prepared of what’s to come even if I know my plan will not really happen if that situation I’m thinking about happens. Useless isn’t?

Smelling the Lechong Kawali I cooked for lunch. Nothing beats the feeling of staying at your parent’s house. The downside of it is, my diet (which is nonexistent right now) is ruined. I need to loose weight. Easier said than done. Meh.

Wishing for a time machine that would show me the future, longer paid vacation. Can you make it a month, please?

Hoping I would soon start the home based part time job I am applying for. There are still kinks I need to work on before I start. I am considering doing this full time in the near future so I hope I could build my portfolio very soon.

Wearing a shirt and short shorts. No need for an OOTD since I’m just always home when doing Sunday Currently unless I talk about what I was wearing yesterday which is… shirt and shorts too. HAHAHA.

Needing a stress reliever. Maybe writing about my worries would somehow relieved me from feeling so worried.

Feeling slightly worried. I have a wonky menstrual cycle. If most girls have a normal 28-day cycle, mine varies from 30-45 days to 100+ days. Yes, 100+ days. I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, in layman’s term my ovaries have many eggs that doesn’t mature. No egg maturity means no menstruation. For the past few months, my cycle is being a bitch. I gained weight which could be attributed to PCOS and my blood sugar is higher than my HbA1c three months ago. My recent sonogram confirmed my PCOS is again out of control. The difficult part of this is, I can’t use OCPs to control my hormonal imbalance because I can’t gain weight more than what I have gained now. OCPs are not allowed for someone with hypertension. I have no choice but go with calendar and symptothermal method for contraception which I find very hard to do since my body is playing tricks on me. It’s so hard pinpointing when I exactly ovulated. It’s a guessing game and for someone who doesn’t want another child yet, this is very worrisome. If it turns out positive, I want a baby boy.

wl, a.

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fridaypocalypse

Friday + Payday + Traffic = BIGTI

It’s not the first time I complained with how unforgiving the roads are every Friday. I should have gotten used it to it and adjust since the roads won’t do that for me but today is an exceptionally difficult Friday morning. It didn’t even start during rush hours, my Friday started being a bitch when the clock turned 12:01 AM.

This is how my shitty morning started. Continue reading “fridaypocalypse”

under the same sky

on days that i miss you
the times when i want to hug you
when a phone call, a chat or a video call
can’t calm my aching heart
i’ll look up at the sky
and say to myself
that even if we are apart
we see one moon
one sunrise and sunset
and until the day
when you are the last i see when i close my eyes
and the first i lay my eyes on when i wake up
i’ll content myself with the thought
that we are always
under the same sky