de-stressing the 1,715 calories i ate today

May utang pa akong 14 Things About Me from Eylah at questions from Jhem kaya naisipan kong sagutin na lang muna kahit may client call ako in 30 minutes. Stress na stress kasi ako. Hindi dahil sa tambak ang workload (na magiging tambak na pagpalit ng araw sa Huwebes kasi antamad tamad ko na naman), kundi dahil sa 1,715 calories na kinain ko maghapon.

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getting personal

Thank you Aila for the blog award(s). As for your questions… Pakyu ka, ‘teh. Joke lang. Niyanig ng mga tanong mo buong pagkatao ko, bes. Hahaha. 

It took me sometime to do this post because I want to honestly answer her questions but I don’t know how honest should I be. I even sent her a message asking how personal is personal. I was also contemplating if I will set this on private and just post the password in the group page then decided not to because, what the heck, this is a personal blog for some reason so I’ll share what I want.

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friday traffic + habal-habal

I try not to hate all days of the work week, however, there are really days I can’t tolerate—Mondays and Fridays. If you are living in Metro Manila, I know you are one of millions who constantly face the crazy traffic from north to south of the city and vice versa. If you are a commuter like me, we face the long lines of MRT, P2P buses, PUVs, jeepneys and tricycles and the hours spent going from one place to another every fvcking day. Complaining and being late due to the traffic are sometimes not acceptable now since we all know that’s already a norm in Metro Manila’s roads. Mondays and Fridays are often the worst days for traffic. Continue reading “friday traffic + habal-habal”

pabili ng inspirasyon

Kakaumpisa pa lang ng buwan pero heto at tamad na tamad naman ako. Pakiramdam ko kasi routine na lang ginagawa ko; gising, minsan takbo, kain, ligo, layas, pasok sa opisina, tanga, trabaho ng pilit (kasi di naman matatapos yung workload ko kung magtitigan lang kame), tanga some more, trabaho ulit, tapos tanga ulit.

Wala na akong gana. Umay na umay na ako. If not because of the pay, a little flexi schedule, holidays off at walang pahirapan sa pagpapaalam sa leave, matagal ko ng nilayasan ‘to.

Hindi naman sa sobrang toxic yung trabaho, toxic na kasama at management pwede pa. Kaya lang kasi, mahigit sampung taon ko na ata ‘tong ginagawa. You are probably asking, bakit di ako magpapromote, mag-manager, ayoko eh. Okay na akong mediocre employee. Sulit na sulit ang ibabayad sa’yo pag nagpa-promote ka para lang sa 10% increase sa sahod mo, salaried ka na, no OT pays, no holiday pay, at no work and life balance pa. Hanggang sa pagtulog mo nagtatrabaho ka.

Andami kong gustong gawin, magtry mag work from home, sipagin, magrelocate, magtry ng bagong kompanya. Kaya lang sa sobrang tamad ko at kawalang ganang kumilos, wala. Eto ako, andito parin. Isang taon pa. Isang taon pa akong magbabyahe kada weekend. Magteten year anniversary muna ako dito, habang nagaantay kung magkakaroon ng lateral transfer sa site na gusto ko. Kung walang mago-open, mapipilitan akong magresign at magumpisa from scratch. Ilang buwan, araw, oras at minuto pa ba yun? Matagal pa.

Alam ko namang kailangan kong umayos. Kailangan ko pa naman ‘tong trabaho ko. Eto ang bumubuhay sa aming mag-ina. Pero, leche, kailangan ko ng isang katerbang inspirasyon kada araw para sipagin sa opisina. Kailangan ko ng renewed strength. Oppa, uubra kaya? Kung meron lang sanang kaopisinang gwapong may abs, baka kahit OT TY, kaya. Eh kaso waley. Kung hindi sila mga paminta, chopseuy ang makikita mo.

Lunes na naman. Kagagaling ko pa lang sa rest day, eto at nagbibilang na ako ng oras at araw bago magbiyenes. Gusto ko na ng day off ulit. Kung nabibili lang ang inspirasyon sa suking tindahan, bibili ako araw-araw. May nagbebenta ba ng bulto bulto nun sa Divisoria?

Leche talaga. Layas lang siguro katapat neto. Road trip tayo?

– wl, a.

Kung ganito lang ang laman ng opisina ko araw-araw, kahit doon na ako tumira. Charaught. Mga baks, apply tayo dito. Dali!

on annotations, book reviews and bookish pet peeves

last post of my three part bookish hanash

Read Jolen’s post here.

I don’t annotate books. I hate writing on my physical books for I feel like that’s a major sin any bookish person would do on their print copies. I use sticky notes if there is something I want to note or write the page down on a notebook and put my thoughts in there. I don’t highlight my favorite quotes in a novel either. I use transparent sticky bookmarks. To make my life easier, I read in my Kindle because I can highlight and put notes in there how many times I like without physically harming the book.

Relatability as basis of one’s reading experience. If it happens all the time, then yes it could be annoying. It’s common for readers to find books they would easily understand and could see themselves with. It’s easier to read a book you could connect with than a character you would have to decipher to get what they’re up to. Sometimes it’s not even relatability per se but how they understood the character’s actions or personality. I wouldn’t call them self-absorbed unless that’s their only basis of how they rate the novel. Most of the time readers would ask themselves; did l like it? Was the ending good? Does the attitude of the protagonist makes sense? Was the narrative okay? Was it boring? Was the pacing dragging? Was the world building solid?

When I make reviews I make it a point to discuss the narrative, the character’s development and the pros and cons of the novel. I don’t like one dimensional characters, they often make me want to hurl the book across the room. One of the worst heroines I had the misfortune of reading was Eona from a book by Alison Goodman. I gave this a one star rating no matter how good the world building was because the freaking heroine doesn’t handle decisions very well to the very end. That novel has an average rating of 4.12, with over 30k+ readers with majority of them singing praises for that series. Am I a minority? Yes, the goddamn heroine has no character development and it annoyed the hell out of me. Sounds shallow, right? I read to enjoy not commit murder.

It’s always subjective why one like a book or not. You said these readers who look for relatability shun other pieces of literary, maybe what they are looking for is not in that book. It’s hard to read a book on a certain topic if you are going through something similar right now. Take it from me. I had to refuse a beta reading request because the book was about break up and I was not ready to read one about it yet back then. It took me a year since its publication to finally get my hands on that book. Did relatability affect my book judgement? Yes. This time, it can’t be helped.

This industry is still business especially on mainstream novels. There was a time paranormal novels are so in after the Twilight saga, almost all the books you’ll find months after that are full of Twilight tropes. These are proven formulas that sell. I discussed this once in Off the Wall, when Pop Fiction here in the Philippines had a sudden massive following that almost all publishers get books from Wattpad.

I’d been in the book blogging community long enough to see how readers and reviewers develop their book choices. Heck, I found my renewed love for reading because of Twilight Saga but I did not stop from there. It took me years to expand from my reading comfort zones. Sometimes preference change as you grow old. You cannot make a person read something if they don’t find the urge to do it. The only time you’ll rethink how you see these readers is if they won’t ever grow up, literary speaking.

Book Review Pet Peeves. Authors who rate their books 5 stars. I don’t get it. If I see an author doing that, I skip the book no matter how good the legit reviews are.

Reviews with so many GIF. Damn, can’t they express what they want to say in words?

Overly positive reviews even if the book has a so-so average rating because it’s an ARC. It’s the reason I don’t accept copies from authors or publishers when I was still active in the book blogging community. I buy the book and bash it all I want if it sucks.

Reviewing books that are the current hype. It generates traffic. I read and review books after their hype are long over.

Reviews with no sense at all. All fangirling. All “it’s soooo awesome, great, best read of all time” with no explanation to back up their claims.

– wl, a.

Here’s the state of my current bookshelf. I trimmed down the books I have, sold and gave away those that I won’t be reading anymore and gave others to my friends and relatives. My books are all over the place, you’ll find several on top of the dresser, on the coffee table, on the computer table, sometimes every corner of the house if I don’t tidy it up. Since I always travel, you’ll see one in my bag too.

my w’s of reading

second post of my three part bookish hanash

Why I read. Simply because I want to. You’ll rarely find me reading classics and literary winners. It’s not that I don’t like them, I read to enjoy and not to make my brain bleed. Continue reading “my w’s of reading”

what kind of reader are you?

a three part post on my bookish hanash triggered by Jolen’s post

Reading has been a part of my life for the past two decades. I fell in love with books at a tender age of eight and since then it held a special place in my heart. I sometimes tease my partner that it’s the constant third party in our relationship. Continue reading “what kind of reader are you?”