de-stressing the 1,715 calories i ate today

May utang pa akong 14 Things About Me from Eylah at questions from Jhem kaya naisipan kong sagutin na lang muna kahit may client call ako in 30 minutes. Stress na stress kasi ako. Hindi dahil sa tambak ang workload (na magiging tambak na pagpalit ng araw sa Huwebes kasi antamad tamad ko na naman), kundi dahil sa 1,715 calories na kinain ko maghapon.

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getting personal

Thank you Aila for the blog award(s). As for your questions… Pakyu ka, ‘teh. Joke lang. Niyanig ng mga tanong mo buong pagkatao ko, bes. Hahaha. 

It took me sometime to do this post because I want to honestly answer her questions but I don’t know how honest should I be. I even sent her a message asking how personal is personal. I was also contemplating if I will set this on private and just post the password in the group page then decided not to because, what the heck, this is a personal blog for some reason so I’ll share what I want.

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friday traffic + habal-habal

I try not to hate all days of the work week, however, there are really days I can’t tolerate—Mondays and Fridays. If you are living in Metro Manila, I know you are one of millions who constantly face the crazy traffic from north to south of the city and vice versa. If you are a commuter like me, we face the long lines of MRT, P2P buses, PUVs, jeepneys and tricycles and the hours spent going from one place to another every fvcking day. Complaining and being late due to the traffic are sometimes not acceptable now since we all know that’s already a norm in Metro Manila’s roads. Mondays and Fridays are often the worst days for traffic. Continue reading “friday traffic + habal-habal”

pabili ng inspirasyon

Kakaumpisa pa lang ng buwan pero heto at tamad na tamad naman ako. Pakiramdam ko kasi routine na lang ginagawa ko; gising, minsan takbo, kain, ligo, layas, pasok sa opisina, tanga, trabaho ng pilit (kasi di naman matatapos yung workload ko kung magtitigan lang kame), tanga some more, trabaho ulit, tapos tanga ulit.

Wala na akong gana. Umay na umay na ako. If not because of the pay, a little flexi schedule, holidays off at walang pahirapan sa pagpapaalam sa leave, matagal ko ng nilayasan ‘to.

Hindi naman sa sobrang toxic yung trabaho, toxic na kasama at management pwede pa. Kaya lang kasi, mahigit sampung taon ko na ata ‘tong ginagawa. You are probably asking, bakit di ako magpapromote, mag-manager, ayoko eh. Okay na akong mediocre employee. Sulit na sulit ang ibabayad sa’yo pag nagpa-promote ka para lang sa 10% increase sa sahod mo, salaried ka na, no OT pays, no holiday pay, at no work and life balance pa. Hanggang sa pagtulog mo nagtatrabaho ka.

Andami kong gustong gawin, magtry mag work from home, sipagin, magrelocate, magtry ng bagong kompanya. Kaya lang sa sobrang tamad ko at kawalang ganang kumilos, wala. Eto ako, andito parin. Isang taon pa. Isang taon pa akong magbabyahe kada weekend. Magteten year anniversary muna ako dito, habang nagaantay kung magkakaroon ng lateral transfer sa site na gusto ko. Kung walang mago-open, mapipilitan akong magresign at magumpisa from scratch. Ilang buwan, araw, oras at minuto pa ba yun? Matagal pa.

Alam ko namang kailangan kong umayos. Kailangan ko pa naman ‘tong trabaho ko. Eto ang bumubuhay sa aming mag-ina. Pero, leche, kailangan ko ng isang katerbang inspirasyon kada araw para sipagin sa opisina. Kailangan ko ng renewed strength. Oppa, uubra kaya? Kung meron lang sanang kaopisinang gwapong may abs, baka kahit OT TY, kaya. Eh kaso waley. Kung hindi sila mga paminta, chopseuy ang makikita mo.

Lunes na naman. Kagagaling ko pa lang sa rest day, eto at nagbibilang na ako ng oras at araw bago magbiyenes. Gusto ko na ng day off ulit. Kung nabibili lang ang inspirasyon sa suking tindahan, bibili ako araw-araw. May nagbebenta ba ng bulto bulto nun sa Divisoria?

Leche talaga. Layas lang siguro katapat neto. Road trip tayo?

– wl, a.

Kung ganito lang ang laman ng opisina ko araw-araw, kahit doon na ako tumira. Charaught. Mga baks, apply tayo dito. Dali!

sunday currently | 04

what i need is rest in mind, body and pocket

I should have written and posted this last Sunday but since my katamaran due to the weather is at the extremes and I am still recovering from my hospital confinement a few days prior, I set it aside. Now here I am trying to catch up with what happened on my weekend.

I am probably the only person you’ll find in Metro Manila who likes the rainy season. Some of my fondest memories growing up were during this season and with the way the hot season is now, I would gladly welcome any shift from the normal 35-ish degrees weather. Liking the rain doesn’t mean I like the trouble it causes especially in Metro Manila. I like travelling when it’s raining but I hate the traffic, the flood and the additional hours from my usual travel time to and fro the office. We know how crazy Metro Manila gets when the hanging habagat plus a typhoon joins forces and it is not a pretty sight. That recently happened over the weekend, good thing is I wasn’t in Metro Manila during that time. Thank God for small mercies.

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Reading nothing in particular. I’ve been wanting to read A Clash of Kings for a few months now but I couldn’t get a print copy. “K” the Kindle finally gave up on me last month so I couldn’t read my e-copy. I really want to get my hands on a print. Can somebody find me this book on a friendly budget? If you guys can lend me the copy that’s going to be so awesome.

Writing this post and mind-writing my answers for Jolen’s questions in the Awesome Blogger Award she nominated me with. I used to join those in Off the Wall. Now I am not sure if I have the patience to do those anymore though I really love the nomination I got. I am also planning to write a goodbye post to “K” I just can’t find the right time and mood to do it.

Listening to Who You Are by Jessie J.

Watching nothing. I want to watch Kita Kita and a few indie films lined up for screening in the next weeks. Kita Kita is still showing in local cinemas but the fee is not so friendly on my budget. (Feel ko kasi Indie parin. Si Piolo lang nagproduce, commercial fee na agad?!)

Thinking of being active on IG again. The last time I posted was early this year? After that I totally forgot IG. I still have the app on my phone, got tons of images to edit and post but I couldn’t, for the life of me, start doing it again. I probably would before the quarter ends. Kung hindi ako tinamad.

Smelling the aroma of Korean green tea and missing the smell of coffee. The struggle is real.

Wishing I could just pack my bags, resign and move somewhere else. Can time do its work the soonest possible time? I guess not.

Hoping for a divine intervention. Charot. I am hoping that what I started to do this year and wants to happen in the future will have its results. Why can’t there be a fast forward or a rewind button you could press if you want to see the future or undo what happened in the past? Sabi ko nga, life doesn’t work that way.

Wearing jeans, a gray jacket, a gray shirt and a gray running shoes. It’s a gray day feels today.

Needing rest. I think I would forever need that. I travel for 6-10 hours every weekend plus my everyday travel time to the office. I feel like I spend most of my time sitting in a bus. I badly needed a relocation job or a home based job. I just don’t know where to start. Almost a decade in an office environment for the same company is a little hard to let go, though I know, I should and very soon.

Feeling generally happy with worries on the side and in love.

– wl, a.

P.S. It’s not Sunday anymore. So I’ll just edit the posting date. I can’t wait for next Sunday!

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waiting is not my mo

This year is proving to be a very very difficult year. I should not be stressing myself over things I couldn’t get the answers yet but I can’t help it. Waiting is not my strongest suit. You may also simply say I’m fvcking impatient. Working this out is so hard when you’re a certified number one praning. It makes your waiting time nakakabaliw. I should work on that, I know but with the way I think now, it’s going to be a laborious process.

Can somebody give me pointers to be more patient? Because, really. This kapraningan is putting a toll on me. I don’t know if I can last. I’ll probably end up crazy in the next few days.

– w.l – a

Definition:
Praning
/Nakakapraning – means paranoid
Nakakabaliw – means makes you crazy

choosing joy is hard

Six months into my word and I am almost, almost ready to give it up. My life wasn’t easy and it mold me in a way that I tend to be pessimistic when things don’t go my way. I am impatient. It’s a flaw that led me to decisions I made in the past that I never really thought of the consequences later on. I knew that kind of attitude will make choosing joy a struggle but I never thought it will be this difficult.

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