under the same sky

on days that i miss you
the times when i want to hug you
when a phone call, a chat or a video call
can’t calm my aching heart
i’ll look up at the sky
and say to myself
that even if we are apart
we see one moon
one sunrise and sunset
and until the day
when you are the last i see when i close my eyes
and the first i lay my eyes on when i wake up
i’ll content myself with the thought
that we are always
under the same sky

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all over the place

i am sorry if i’m getting on your nerves. i hate myself too when i get so irritating and uncaring and mean. especially lately. when my hormones is all over the place. i know it feels as if it’s an excuse but it is what it is. the mini pill is a bitch. and so was i. words can’t tell you enough how remorseful i am for being this way. for feeling this way. for feeling unwanted. so i snapped because, like you, i was afraid, i was anxious, i was angry. i am not myself. i am not like this. and it takes an ample of self-awareness to see that. to accept that i am on the wrong. is the pill to blame? partly. you might not believe it but i couldn’t explain why i am so moody these days. why i feel depressed and anxious and easily angered, with or without a reason. i’m sorry for screwing your head. if i made you feel whatever you are feeling right now. i know deep within me, i am not like this. only now. i hope after i get my hormones back to normal, i’ll get back to my normal self too. though you have to remember, i am not perfect. i am complicated, unpredictable, unreasonable and irrational at times. i am a difficult person to love. and like you, i am afraid  someday you’ll get fed up and just give up. i don’t always express my feelings. i don’t always tell you how important you are. how you’ve become a permanent part of my life. in case you don’t know it yet, you are. and a lot more.

i can’t say goodbye

i tried
so many times
just thinking of the days when you’re not there
it’s makes me crazy

how can i say goodbye?

you keep me sane in the wee hours of the morning
when i have a call in the middle of the night
you keep me awake
you fire up my neurons when i feel so sabaw

how can i say goodbye?

i cannot give you up
i would crave for your taste
the creaminess
the aroma
and the happiness you bring
i can’t go on days without you
now tell me

how can i say goodbye, coffee?